She called me Mom

She did not have to. She was Larry's daughter not mine. But she called me Mom did I live up to her expectations ? I dont know, I tried though. She hated me and she loved me. She hated that her Daddy left her to be with me. Cant say that I blame her for that. It was never my intention for her to feel that way. But she loved me as well. Her Dad told me years ago that he would share his kids with me, since I was never able to have my own. I could just share his. They all liked that idea. When they were little they would all come over to my apartment. They would go in fifty directions looking for the ferret. I remember she was about 3 and she had been in to the bathroom. She came out to find the ferret in her shoes. And was just horrified she looked at me and cried " those are my shoes ". Her lifes ambition was to be a Grandmother. She was a sweet sweet child, and thrilled us both when she came back into our lives 10 years after the divorce. She only stayed a little while. It broke our hearts to see her go. But she was a grown up. She kept reminding us of that. That she was not that little girl any more. Though we never got that image of her out of our heads. She was always that little girl. With those big impossibly blue eyes, and that crooked little grin. We wanted to just keep her, and keep her safe. That was not as simple as it had been when she was young. So we had to let her go. Larry told her she could come back that we would come and get her. No matter what no matter where we would move mountains for HER not for her and the boyfriend. Maybe thats where we were wrong ? Putting conditions on our coming to her rescue. She loved crasins and bubble gum we would send her boxes full of those and beads. She loved Jesus she loved her family especially her little sister. She has a child of her own now Elijah they call him Eli we have never met him. But he is safe with her sister Emily and her family. I love her awful I always did I always will. She called me Mom and my baby died this week a tragic accident a life cut short way to soon. Rest in Peace sweet Katie and know that we love you.